Out Of Place

Life is an endless race until you die,

and I am still looking for that perfect place.

I feel so out of place,

Sometimes people do not understand.

It seems like I am beating the clock all the time.

I do need to fill this void inside of me,

And let my dreams shine

Out of me.

It's so obvious, I can see.

I have been feeling so out of place.

I am sometimes lost without a single trace.

What am I doing in this tiny piece of land?

Just working to make ends meet.

I am still looking for that perfect place.

I feel so out of place

But I'm still fighting.

I won't surrender; I won't give in.

I am not that soft and tender.

I'm just feeling a bit lost right now.

Trying to find a safe place, a common ground within myself.

I know I've got so much to show.

Being so busy, I cannot glow.

Take me away.

Take me away from here

Before I crack.

How I would hate that.

I feel so out of place

But I'm still fighting.

I won't surrender; I won't give in.

I am not that soft and tender.

I'm just feeling a bit lost right now.

Trying to find a safe place, a common ground within myself.

I feel so out of place,

And I am still looking for perfection.

Then I think straight for a while,

Slap my own face and abruptly drop my smile.

All I want is some deep connection,

Experience sincere affection.

I feel so out of place

But I'm still fighting.

I won't surrender; I won't give in.

I am not that soft and tender.

I'm just feeling a bit lost right now.

Trying to find a safe place, a common ground within myself.

I'm just feeling a bit lost right now.

Trying to find a safe place, a common ground within myself.

Nélson José Ponte Rodrigues

09-02-2016
20/08/2026 (Revised and edited)

I don't know what the future holds. That frightens me... There's one thing I'm sure of: I want so much more than this. I'm still growing. I want to learn new things, explore new horizons, meet new and interesting people... This is what I call living for a reason! In other words, with a higher purpose, not in vain! I'm still hungry for more! My main concern has been making money, but that's not enough anymore. Besides working hard, I need to have some reasonable spare time for my interests and hobbies. Will I ever get the chance to truly relax? There are so many goals locked inside of me, but so little time to let them come to life. I cannot wait much longer! I know! Fear and determination are in an intense fight... again! I love my country, but hate its rulers. They make me sick. It's about time to write a new chapter!